it is the moments of truest lonesome,

that all the pieces come together and the conclusion is made....that this wasn't going to be easy.

Today was the first day , that i realized, that my own friends have ditched me for somebody they spent month after month talking trash about. today was the first day i was not handed over the invitation. thank you, for spending half a year in my life, replacing all prior friendships and memories. thank you for ditching me.

Kids

This version is far more beautiful.

the moonbow

missed my daily dosage today, yesterday, tomorrow

i am at the upmost tragic state of mind. with every passing day swipes the realization that come august, you'll be in another state, with another mind set, and a free soul. and you will transform from my pride and joy, to my should of-could of-would of.

I love that you get cold when it's 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you a full 3 minutes to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle above your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.

i hope that "bipolar disorder" is the death of you

lindsey leigh peeples

mich

im going here tonight

Tomorrow: I am receiving my magical mushrooms

and going to the drum circle.

Spectacular Failures

Life is but a dream in a greater scheme, waking up is hard to do.
Even if you're quick, something holds you back, always waiting in a queue for someone,
to tell you you're broke, or you should not smoke anymore cigarettes.
Planets will align, if you give them time.
When you least expect, everything connects, even when the hope is gone there is you,
and you'll keep your name, and the things in your brain just might see you through.

'Cos you are light, and in darkest night you shine.
And I guess we're doing fine, but there's no escaping our spectacular failure.

Digging in between things we've never seen, trying to find the missing links.
All these scientists are trying every trick just before the city sinks without trace.
So much we've achieved, so I hope when we leave there's a smile on our face.

'Cos you are light, and in darkest night you shine.
And I guess we're doing fine, but there's no escaping our spectacular failure

i took a nap with jorge today, and he kissed me in my sleep.
tell me that does not bring a smile to your lips? well..i wasn't expecting it too, but it did to mine.

But how long will you stay with me, baby?
Because your candle burns too bright
Well I almost forgot it was twilight
Even if I think that you are right
Well I'm tired of being down, I got no fight

son el ombligo del mundo

Today my father made his point.
"And when the movie about jesus christ came out, with mel gibson and all of the jews complained that the scenes were too explicit. that now everybody will think the wrong idea about jews...Mel Gibson said this 'So its too explicit to make a movie on the bible about how the jews tortured jesus christ, who was himself a jew. But it's a whole different story when it's a movie about how 6 million jews were killed in the holocaust.'"
Then my dad went on saying this "jews think everybody are out to get them, because they always the victims"

I for one don't have a care in the world for religious beliefs, so if you are a jew reading this, don't get offended.

My oh my,

I attract a bunch of family blogs on blogger. Why in the world? I'm a fifteen year old girl and i want nothing to do with the life of bloody mothers. I have one emotional mum to worry about already.

Angel, I don't know what i'll do without you next year.

he's a clown, that charlie brown

he's gonna get caught. just you wait and see....
why is everybody always pickin on me!


My lovely pal erik made me a mixed CD with bunches of songs he'd suggest i listen to. I have the BEST of friends. Let me tell ya!
And he provided me some green afterwards. I owe him. I do.

The what seems to be late introduction,

Now if your eyes do fall upon this little blog of mine, you might be wondering who it this author. (i wish i had such the high authority to be called an author). No but really, how many times have you read and read introductions. Some of you irk for them, while others could careless about the author's grandma who found a leaf clover. So i'll make this seemingly as interesting as I can.
Hi I'm susie salmon. Suzy Q. I'll leave it at that. Q is not really the first letter of my last name, but on the internet I can use whatever last name i'd like. Suzy though, is my first name. And i enjoy it too much to fake another one. Im Suzy, and i like to write the full word etcetera. Now if i like to write etcetera, then that mean i don't like to shorten words like to (2), from (4rm), idk (i don't know). You get the idea. I don't follow through to my own plans, and i cant lick my elbow, ride a tricycle, or even whistle. I reside in miami and i want to skedaddle on out of here as quickly as possible. People are my largest annoyance, but i tolerate them. I have always been lonesome. No matter what friend called me theirs, i could never find it in me to trust them. No, i don't have pathetic trust issues. I just don't like to put my problems on other people's shoulders like every single american girl in this century. This year was the first year i have had enough friends who are all mutually friends with each other to start a video for them and myself. I like memories. And incase you were wondering how many people are included in this group..its four people including myself. I have a significant other, and though i wish for him to go to his college of choice everyday, i still dread the fact he's going to be leaving me next year. I appreciate everything i have, and it might sound like i don't but what do fifteen year old girls really know anyway.

Now to console you,

I made myself so sick,

Today's topic: Death.

No, not really. Why would I force readers (whoever's eyes are lurking) to read about death? What about suicide? (no too gloomy) homicide? In reality, I don't think anybody focus's as much attention as they should to the fact that life itself could be snatched from one as quick as a gasp of breath. Why should we focus on these rare situation based problems? "it won't happen to me." Maybe it won't. Maybe you will live your life in perfect health, with a perfect love, and a perfect condition. You will smoke 2 packs of cigarettes every single day but somehow manage to live 'till the age of 80. But the killing of one, can happen quicker then imaginable. Something I wont ever know, unless experienced. And if I did experience this deadly act, well i wouldn't be here to tell you the aftermath of being shot to the head. Or being drowned. Or sliced in thousands of pieces.

It might not ever be me who deals with a live or die situation, but having a friend or relative experience such thing is just as bad. Might as well crucify me in the knowing.

Songs that enjoy sticking to my tail Pt I

The ballad of john and yoko

Roxanne

In the streets

Lessons learned

Close to me

That was only today's list.